Why do I hold my breath?Keeping all my authentic feelings hidden behind no voice?

I like this breathing exercise as it is gentle!

http://youtube.com/post/UgkxqBoSt-zBZYHNAm_VTxffXi0G7vIat9b2?si=8Gcd_fd1EjrwS-gQ

So, I lost my voice and had an asthma attack.

But, let’s take a step back…

Before I lost my voice, I lost my temper when I was 11- with my Dad.

I understand that he didn’t much appreciate being sworn at by a pre-teen in his own home.

And I never swore at him again-

Because he chased me out of the living room and threw me by the scruff of the neck across the dining room and I landed in a lump in the chairs, and had an asthma attack.

My mum ran to my rescue 🛟 and caught a lashing too- slammed up against the wall- sort out your f###### child.

My Dad was an alcoholic and I should have known better than to tempt him when he first woke up.

And so, I had a part come up to protect me, and I lost my voice.

 (I’m not the greatest with a hangover either 😵 so I tend not to drink.)

But let’s take a step back…

Before I swore at my Dad, I had been out riding my bicycle and it was raining heavily.

And I had a very, very close encounter with a car coming out of an alleyway! I was already in a highly sympathetic state- I almost lost my life twice that day. -I’ve never told anyone that before.

And actually I did get hit on another occasion riding that bike.

Accidents, Incidents and Abuse.

Things that all happen so quickly that we don’t get time to recover and breathe.

We brace and hold and tense into the next situation and the next, so please give this video a listen and follow along, remembering to exhale and notice your body, feeling what is and letting it ebb and flow.